the agony of waiting

Dear Baby,

Mommy’s waiting for Daddy’s text. He will schedule us to your doctor again. I’m so restless, the room’s so clean already. Daddy will be so proud of us.

We had a great weekend, right?! I know, even if Mommy’s so sick, you enjoyed the attention from your Grandma and Titas. I know that you were so happy when Grandma said goodnight and touched you. I know, you were kinda sad when you saw Grandma’s tears. I was also so sad Baby, coz I really want to give her peace of mind, especially now that your Grandpa’s not with her. Her tears reminded me of your Daddy crying. And you know how painful that was, right? To see your very macho and tough Daddy crying. And we don’t want to see that again, di ba Baby?!

That’s why I’m asking you, Baby, to show your self later. We will take your picture and send it to Grandma and Grandpa. And that will be the best birthday gift that Grandma will receive on her birthday, right?! Maybe your soon-to-be-born cousin would kiss you and wake you up later, eh?!

Baby, you saw the new milk that Daddy bought for us? He said it’s yummier than the previous one we’re drinking. Makes me think, “How did he knew its yummier?!” hhhmmm… Anyway, let’s not let him down today, okay? For the past few days since we knew we had you, Daddy did all the preparation of your food, of your milk, even if you always have this weird mannerism of getting hungry during wee hours… Let’s do this for your Daddy, and Grandma, and Grandpa, and Titas, and your Ninangs and Ninongs.

I’m scared, Baby. Just give me a reason to go on fighting. And I know I am blabbing again, but I am so restless, it’s making me sick. Just please, please hear our prayers. Remember what Daddy Mangot told you this morning, “Laro ka lang dyan Baby ha? Basta pakita ka mamaya kay Dra. Para may pang birthday gift tayo kay Grandma.”

I love you, Baby. We love you. And we can’t wait to see you and to actually hold you in our arms.

Love lots,

Mommy Arte